Well, another week passed, another 5 hours of exercise in, another week of counting calories and crossing fingers.
AND THE RESULTS ARE IN:
I gained a pound.
That's right. I said GAINED.
After a week of blood, sweat and agonizing tears, I gained a pound.
After a week of running - that's right, I bumped it up to running - on my elliptical, I gained a pound.
After moving from 3 lb. weights to 5 lb. weights.... I gained a pound.
That being said, I have flittered through a range of emotions this morning.
And a little of this:
I won't lie. I am a little bitter. I am so jealous of all those women who don't have to work as hard to lose weight. I can't stand the fact that there are people who can eat whatever they want and never work out and still look just as skinny as a board. I envy those who have more than a half hour of time to dedicate to exercise. I hate the fact that my body clings to the fat like it's a full force life line of support.
Right now it would be so easy to give up and walk away. Just forget it. I don't care about this stupid weight let's eat, drink, and be merry! Let's lay on the couch and watch tv. Because this whole diet and exercising isn't getting me anywhere. Well, NOW it isn't getting me anywhere.
But, before you click away and say, "There she goes, on one of her Debby-downer kicks..." I am not giving up. I will take the weekend off of my diet, just like I do every weekend. And then come Monday, I will hit it hard again. And maybe next Friday I will have something to show for it, or maybe not.
I am edging ever closer to that December deadline for this massive weight loss challenge of mine, and it's getting more and more difficult to get the pounds off. But I will not give up!
I keep reminding myself that the real goal here is not and should not be a number, it's an overall health goal. I want to be healthy. I want to be in shape. And just because my wii still tells me I am obese does not mean that I am not getting closer and closer to good health.
So here's to next week's weight loss! Goal is to kick it to that 4 lb. goal! Maybe I will even try to run this weekend....
Wait, did I say RUN? On the weekend?
Yeah, that just isn't gonna happen....
But it sounds good, right?
Now, that's a laugh!